our city

There is nothing more beautiful in this world of colors
than this city of light and beauty smothered in landscapes most fair.
a reflection of land that wears its history like a shawl, draped gently on the wet skin of wild lovers sprawled delicately across our memories, curiously mapping out all the wondrous places out there.
glittering and bright in the fog at night, like the last breath of a kiss gone far away, you will linger with me till i walk away from here, taking all my memories with me of times dear and undying in the light.
from the ocean rising to meet majestic forms,
titans have made this place a palace for the might of heroes and legend. a place we all return to in our minds, our land, our dear city of tempest and song,
our freedom and the beauty you can taste in the air.
finding glory in ourselves, enlightenment without abandon or care.

i have lived and loved in this city by the bay, like the gods of life and love i have lived among men and found love deeply human.

something inside me

i came back to my life not knowing what i was going to get with you, not knowing exactly what we had when i left. things seemed always made up of little awkward moments of almost touching, brazed cheeks, lips that have never met, looks that have fallen into the openness of never having been.

but things aren't always what they seem. there's something underneath us both wanting to be seen by those we love. there's this feeling of adoration i can only hold onto for so long before it pours out of me out into everything around us. there's something inside me that loves you already, fiercely and terribly.

goodbye bobby sands

as you lay there in silence on the eve of your death, there was a moment when you slowly took a breath and looked into my eyes and smiled. i thought this was it, your end of the line, only to find there would be a few more to come. small breaths you'd puff out, emptying the last that were left inside your frame, small pockets of air suddenly dignified and poised knowing that you'd soon never breathe again.
you look so child-like and alone as you lay there with barely any clothes on.
your bones gently peeping through the white cloth they placed over your tiny body. the one that will become your funeral shroud. they'll show it on tv, as if people need to see your death to become their martyr. our freedom fighter they'll fondly say, but i will not remember you that way. i'll be the one to look away when they show your face and give you special days of remembrance.
i knew and loved that body of yours, long before it became theirs. one day, long before this, you gave me your soul in exchange for a lifetime, you gave me love.
but that love went away as you walked closer to this death, clinging to your beliefs rather than to our past, as if love meant nothing in the shadow of your fight.
i'm left with these thorns of regret that have been permanently placed on my wrists like handcuffs. you took my voice away and now, i have nothing i can say but i loved you. i loved you.

done

no going back now, to places we've been,
to the times we shared, hands held, songs sung and memories dwelt among the untrodden ways.

there is no more of that now.
i thinks it's all done.
but i think that's ok, it's what happens when you walk away.

cee tea

go ahead, take me somewhere i have not seen,
sacred palaces of places farther than i've ever dreamed of flying off to, curiously close to burning stars on a dark night, pressing my lips upon the undying light of death and rebirth; the edge.

tell me something i've waited to hear all my life, whispering my name as the sun sets for the second time.
as we lay here in reflection trying to find the other in the faces looking back, i can adore you for all time, my lifetime.

as you and i sit on the sand, breaths speaking unspoken words in code, our hearts make sounds to the songs of life, alive, hearts beating wildly unapologetic.
i can hear you, living. we found each other just before the wind broke our silence.
i like you more for it.

these moments are ours,
blissful and opulently carefree.