whistling

early onset puberty. men whistling, catcalls calling. calling you to remember their crudeness.
sex was nothing, it just happened. no attachment, no sacredness.
action.
your reaction was to dive into it. you don't look back ever.
it's better that way.
sweat and tears later. fastforward.
i love you, i still love you.
take my fears away.
you can't because you don't know how to.
all you can do is hear catcalls and whistling.