whiskey nightmares and she

once upon a time always begins in the sunshine when things are so carefree and taste so sweet.
where whiskey and cigarettes bring us nothing but happiness,
and push us as close as we can be to the shores of each others bodies.

she, in the dark became my light.
she, burning brighter than i had ever seen another human being in the night
so clear and carefree becoming everything i would need.
she gave me her strength so that i could proceed without her
when life happened and slowly shadows danced into the perfect world we set out to create together.

now, i remain when she has gone, lighting new cigarettes and pouring more drinks.
left with her socks, her scent, and glorious memories that are somehow too fragile to recall without tears to accompany them.